This weekend was a sad one. It was unfortunately the anniversary of the death of a woman who I loved like a Mother. Who I had the honour and priviledge of calling "Mom". The day was bittersweet. So after wiping up my tears I ventured out to do what makes me feel better - head out with my camera. Now on days like this when I don't have any paying customers or willing "volunteers", my daughter is my human guinea pig. She is my model and muse. So off we went. She is a beautiful young girl so capturing the beauty of her is easy.
Now comes the akward and out of place time.....we had a lot of social activites this weekend. We were at one this weekend where I have never felt so out of place. One would figure as you get older that social situations with a bunch of strangers would get easier. I am an outgoing person - I talk to anyone and everyone wherever I go but at this particular event I felt out of place. We weren't "one of them".
So what makes me feel better when I feel out of sorts? Depressed? Not included? Just not myself? Photographs. I sat down with my laptop and I edited pictures. That makes me happy.
I still shed some tears before bed for missing my "other Mom", I still felt like an "outsider" with the one event we attended, I appreciated the others we went to but more importantly I got out with my camera. I spent my not feeling good time working on pics so I went to sleep happy. Photography makes me happy.
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